In the Darkness

I was listening to some old songs of George Michel and Savage Garden in pitch darkness when it appeared to me; life hadn’t given me anything to write about today. Nothing had happened nor did I spend time thinking about anything in particular.
Admiring the beauty of the half crescent, yellowish Moon, which appeared all the more beautiful in this darkness; I found myself relating to the songs I was listening to; to the memories and experiences of my Past.
Old people often live in past. Having nothing much to do in the present they take shelter in their past. I had nothing to do in recent times either. I was just wasting my time waiting for something so arrive. May be that was the reason why I was loosing myself like this to memories of my past.

Is it amazing how our world seems to come to a halt when the lights go out?
One can’t do anything, except patiently wait and explore the world in darkness. And indeed the darkness beholds a new world for those who can see through it.
Coming out of our private business and finding nothing to do, we look for alternatives. In the process we communicate, talk to the people around us and share our feelings with one other. Perhaps that’s why we feel so ONE when the lights go out. Having to put up with inconvenience in common bonds people. One can inventory take a break from ‘I have Work to look after’ and enjoy some quite moments. Moments of introspection, of memories, of beauty, of peace, of unity.
Strange how sometimes, we don’t just open our eyes but also our minds, hearths and ourselves only in darkness.
Then I saw my colony light up and I thought, I wish lights could go off like this everyday for a short while.


And hey Life gives something to write about everyday, just got to be patient and open!

Onces Company

Roaming at the Mall today, I was envying the couples I saw. They seemed to be with perfect partners, enjoying each others company and perhaps showing off each other to unfortunate singles like Me.
I wondered where My Company was?
This thought- setting off a chain of memories in my mind…I had almost forgotten.
Memories of the road we used to walk by at night, of Corneto icecreams used to have on summer evenings,…of the occasional Sprits, Feel of those rough hands in mine and that care free smile…Some time ago, I had a wonderful company. We accompanied each other almost everywhere we went- Shopping, eating, and going on evening walks and even on Dates!
I had lost my comany, for reasons I didn’t wanted to think about now.

All I wanted, is to be happy-

for I had Once enjoyed the company of a wonderful partner and knew what it is to be a Dear one.

Sounds Faith?

I was wondering for a while now, and this just appeared to me!
Its been over a week now since my exams got over and I still don't get the pangs
of not having anything to do in Life.
Don't feel as if everybody has moved ahead with great offers in their hand and I'm the one whose left behind. It's not like the way I was feeling few months ago-Desperate to get my hands on the next best offer that I find.
I'm surprised to find myself so 'Calm'. Almost like a turtle, moving at its' OWN pace.
I realise that just because everybody's after 'fish' , You don't have to go after it!
U might want a frog or a stone or anything , Ur wants might be different than that of Ur Herds'.

All u got to do in times of Chaos is to stay clam, listen to Ur deep inner voice, trust it and
let go.
Things that U deserve will come to u.
Just be clear about What U want, what U r looking for ...And take it as they come to U.

Make a clear wish to the Universe and it will be fullfilled

What should I do of My Life ?!

I have recently completed MBA, got a good offer too,
but thanks to the recession My joining has been extended for 5 months from now!
In the mean time I wonder What to do ?!

It is easy to choose between options for killing time...
Join a Computer course, a singing class, go for trekking...
But I have an excuse for not opting for any of these.

In attempting to answer my previous question I'm hit by another bigger question,
What should I do of My Life ?!


Its been 23 years and 4 months since I have been looking for an answer
and still can't find one to stick too.

When I was a kid, I believed everyone comes with a special purpose on this planet,
I wondered what could have been mine?

We all have own ways to define, describe -life
the way we have experienced it
I haven't found mine yet.

They say what matter is how we end and not how we begin...
In the end we all have our stories to tell about life,
Some interesting, others sad...
Some ordinary and some extra-ordinary

I might not know what to do in the mean time...

Something might just come up with time...

But 1 question in my mind, will certainly linger for a long time ...

What should I do Of My life?